Nowhere was the feeling of bewilderment and betrayal stronger than among Clinton's political allies -- from cabinet members to White House aides -- who had put their careers on the line for him. Yet there were no immediate apologies to staff members these would come only two days later, after Clinton read in the New York Times that he had supposedly called in several key staff members and begged their forgiveness. It was hard to imagine how he could do this to us, ... and how he could be so incredibly reckless . . .